Poignant

Not how many times the expression of I love you nor I'm sorry, deeds are all that matter. Mature love I would say.

Summer Break

Sekarang baru mula cuti summer lepas habis exam final. Tahun ini cuti tak balik Malaysia, sebab tahun depan dah habis belajar, maka rancangnya nak balik terus akhir bulan 3. Biasalah bila tak balik rasa sedih sobs.

Tahun ini satu family raya di Australia. Sebab temankan Umar, mak kesian tengok Umar selalu tak dapat cuti jalan-jalan macam orang lain. Jadi saja semua raya di Australia, sebab tu rasa tak sedih sangat raya kat sini.

Cuma rasa sedih sikit tak dapat join pergi family outing, dan rasa sedih jugak Yusuf tak dapat jumpa atuk nenek tokbah nekma. Yusuf membesar cepat sangat. Sekarang baru 6 bulan tapi dah hensem dan macam-macam perangai. Golek sana sini. Tidur pun dah ada gaya, terpusing-pusing. Kalau tahun depan balik agaknya Yusuf dah pandai berjalan dan tumbuh gigi. Sedihnya :( Yusuf hensem janganlah membesar cepat sangat.

Everything seems to move too fast. The next pit maybe I've already becoming grandma too, or my hair all turn white, or maybe I didn't have the chance to see all of it neither.

No matter what happen, may my heart be the same, may my love towards Him everlasting and keep on improving from one day to the next. If and only if.

Yusuf's officially 6 months old :D

So true

24th April 2015

Setelah 40 Minggu

Apa akan jadi sekiranya bayi yang anda kandungkan sudah melepasi tarikh anggaran beliau keluar (due date) tapi tak keluar-keluar?

Kandungan normal cukup bulan ialah di antara 38-40 minggu. Sebelum 38 tidak cukup bulan (premature) dan selepas 40 (post mature). Sekiranya bayi lahir sebelum 37 minggu, organ-organ dalam badan belum benar-benar matang dan berfungsi baik, jadi biasanya akan diletakkan di tahan di wad bagi pemeriksaan dan penjagaan sehingga disahkan ok oleh doktor.

Tapi apa masalahnya kalau selepas 40 minggu? Patut biar sajakah sehingga rasa sakit ?

Antara risiko bayi terlebih matang ialah :
1) Bayi akan membesar dengan laju menyebabkan susah untuk dilahirkan, mungkin perlu pembedahan.
2) Bayi mungkin termakan dan tercekik tahi sendiri (meconium) di dalam perut - ini paling bahaya.
3) Sekiranya dilahirkan secara normal, mungkin berlaku komplikasi seperti bahu tersangkut (shoulder dystocia) dan merosakkan saraf tangan menyebabkan kecacatan kekal seumur hidup.
4) Proses kelahiran yang susah dan panjang menghasilkan komplikasi yang mungkin memberi kecacatan (cerebral palsy) seumur hidup - paling menyedihkan.
5) Sang ibu juga berdepan dengan luka yang lebih besar dan jahitan yang banyak.
6) Bayi tidak dapat oksigen yang cukup dan keperluan lain kerana berlaku proses 'placenta insufficiency'.

Sekarang sedang berada di posting Obstretic & Gynaecology (OnG). Doakan moga dipermudah segalanya :)

Blessing

Leaving the exam hall with a lot of things going through my head. A part of it was of course relieve, finally I'm out of the exam pressure. Nevertheless the feeling of unsure whether have i done my best? Couldnt it be any better?

All of the exam questions came out exactly as I thought it would be - easy! Feeling dissapointed, I'm the one who did not study that much, thus how much do I expect? (And yet I'm hoping I could be in the top 5 list =.=')

Walking home with a perplexed face thinking over and over again, why I didnt allocate my time wisely and blaming others saying that how they have taken my precious time bla3. At the end, realising that the problem was always come from me, myself.

Clearly, the time was always there. Its just me that losing the 'barokah' in the amount of time that I spent. In every situation of insufficiency, either money, time or even family, with the blessing from Allah swt, we will never felt the lacking. Everything will be enough and sometimes even multiplied.

'Barokah' (blessing) is a special thing; that you cannot see by the eyes, but can only be felt by the heart and imaan.

At the age of 25, I'm a student, daughter, wife and mother. How fast that could be? How much time I left in this dunya, and soon enough I'm leaving for the hereafter. May the 'barokah' will always be with me all the time, in shaa Allah.

2 months

 and counting :D